Self-centred and Self-conscious
Have you ever had one of those shocking moments of clarity when you realize that you are as terrible as you think you are? Probably not because most of the people I know are actually nice. I think, karma-wise, I'm coming back as a bug. It might have been better if I didn't have to realize it ahead of time.
posted by LilyMab @ 8:42 p.m.
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5 Comments:
What did you do that was so bad? Everyone has moments where they act in a way they wouldn't normally act, sometimes things can just get to you and you snap. I can't imagine that you would do anything so unforgivable though. Plus I think being a giver and a "yes man" all the time is highly overrated. It's okay to say, you know what, this is my life and my decisions and my time, and I choose to take care of myself and not bend over backwards for everyone else. If you feel bad about whatever happened, apologize to the injured party but don't be so hard on yourself. No one is perfect and it's okay to make mistakes sometimes.
Let me know if you need to talk.
Heathen Yak
If you're coming back as a bug, I bet it's a butterfly.
So, about once every year or two, I lose my temper. I don't mean that I get upset...I mean I really lose it. Freak out, throw things, it's not pretty. I have my Dad's temperment and, in general, we're fairly calm about stuff and have a high level of tolerance. But, once the tolerance level exceeds maximum, watch out. I'm very disappointed with myself because I lost my temper with my son and really yelled. I also gave him probably the worst shampoo ever. I was so angry that I was shaking and crying. I didn't hurt him, but I did scare him pretty good. I had to give myself a time out so that I could calm down. I hate it when I lose control. He's already forgiven me for getting upset (we hugged it out right after), but it's going to take me quite a bit longer to forgive myself. I suppose every parent has a day like that, but I'm still feeling like a really crappy mommy today.
Hey. Sorry to hear about your "incident". Maybe there's something building up inside you that needs more attention. I know you have a lot of responsibilities and I can understand how frustration could build up. You're not a bad mommy, you just made a mistake. I hope things are okay now.
Yak
Oh sweetie, take it from me. Being a parent is the hardest job in the world and I have yet to meet a parent who didn't lose it now and then. Just remember that no one was hurt, and next time you feel this way (and you will), you will remember how you felt the last time and can give yourself the time out ahead of time.
Give him a big hug and let it go, he has.
Hugs
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