As per my previous blog, I've been pretty down in the dumps lately. Yesterday kind of capped it off. Yesterday is one of those days that you expect to be good, but then you receive no e-mails and your friends blow you off to do something else. Basically, it sucked. I do have some awards to hand out though:
Hero Awards:
1) Mom and Dad for taking the kids so that I could have a quiet dinner out with Jake and also for getting me flowers and a very nice present that cheered me up lots. And apparently there is to be cake tonight...hurrah!
2) Kendra and Lynda for actually showing up at my party without having to be cajoled into it...and thanks to them, I actually had a great evening with the girls :) That was so much fun that next time, I may only invite the girls!
Because of you guys, my day at least ended well and was not a total loss. Thank you!
Honourable Mentions:
1) Jake - he didn't have time to shop because he's been sick and has been depressed a lot himself lately, but he still took me out for a nice dinner and tried to make me feel special.
2) My Yakalicious Friend - for sending me an e-mail on Friday telling me to enjoy the weekend.
Here's the really frustrating, thing, though. My life is actually crappy and depressing mostly because of myself. I've immersed myself in this inanely mundane world in which my life revolves solely around going to work, spending time with my family, and housework. I have become a drone. I rarely e-mail my friends anymore, have stopped planning activities, do not do anything extracurricular except watch DVDs, and don't really take care of myself (as in eat properly, exercise, or treat myself). I am depressed and, really, not doing anything to pull myself out of it...and I can't really expect others to do it for me.
I guess I'm more disappointed in myself than in anyone else because you can't really expect friendship when you aren't being a good friend yourself. So, let's see what I can do about that.